Not sleeping

I am up late unable to sleep. I am surfing trying to find a new job and essentially a new life. I wonder if that is possible on the web. I am so tired and exhausted from a hideous job and extreme amounts of emotional fatigue and lots of yoga that I find it hard to sleep. Go figure. I am hoping to fall asleep before the sun rises. Of course my new dog is resting comfortably on the floor. How do animals do it? It seems they can sleep through the best and worst of times. Oh to have that kind of life. Well week 3 of yoga teacher training is almost over. I am going to skip the cadaver field trip tomorrow and take it easy. I think I am going to walk the doggie, go to morning yoga and see a movie. I think that sounds splendid. Provided again that I can fall asleep relatively soon. I just finished reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert yesterday. For any of you women out there that are unhappy and feeling unfulfilled or are just looking for some other form of contentment, I highly recommend it. It definitely is changing my way of thinking along with all of the mediation and forward bends and yogi pretzel like positions I have been taking on these days.

Well I am going to give this sleep thing one more chance. More later.

Missing Lulu

I think about Leilani all the time. I think about alot of things all the time. Like am I total screw up because I am without man and family at the ripe old age of 34. Then I talk to my friends and decide that perhaps that the grass is not always greener on the other side. Who knows really?

What I do know is all of this yoga training is teaching me all about forgiving myself and figuring out what is important to me. Well more later...I must finish my book club book - Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. Fabulous book...I highly recommend you all read it.

Leilani

Well I have never had an online journal so this is new for me. My best friend suggested that I do it for a couple of reasons. One is so that we could be more connected online and the other is to write about the loss of my best friend - Leilani, my 10 year old Australian Shepherd who recently passed away. I think I can only use this opportunity to write about my journey on my yoga journey. I am training to be a yoga teacher with power yoga. It is a 9 week process and it is extremely challenging (to say the least). So hopefully this is a great venue for me to express all of my feelings. Well more to come later.